But things will never change.
Last December I applied a job, I passed 1st and 2nd interviews, but failed the last one. They asked me C++ which I use rarely...
I really want that job, I thought I would be grown up fast if I can work with good engineers there. But I wouldn't know since I failed. I do regret, and I should have myself prepared.
I have been down for two months, especially after I know one of my colleague gets the job.
But I just realize I can still improve myself even I don't get the job. They're not related.
There are open source projects, I should contribute and work with those people. Both Chrome, and Firefox are opened, the people work on it must be amazing good. So I start trying to setup a development environment at home (on a notebook with 512MB ram and Pentime M 1.7G), but seems it's not good enough for building large codebase. I'll try to get a better one though it takes some money.
The failure makes me to restart, I feel now like a beginner, I like that. I'll enjoy the coming journey.